ledhead999

Once I had a dream of sunbeams, self-esteem & rising cream - was it just a dream or is it reality? Who can ever tell me the difference & truly know what the fuck they're talking about? Whose opinion about it should I trust more than my own?

CHAPTER 1

The more time you spend in a dream, the more likely you are to forget you're dreaming.

Now that I finally understand the dream well enough to perceive the illusion of the physical world for what it truly is, I know exactly what I need to do - even though the knowledge of this still manages to slip my mind from time to time.

The dream w/in a dream w/in a dream is becoming less & less important to me than it seems.

All that's truly left for me to do here now is find the easiest & fastest way possible to wake myself up for good from the motherfucking dream - a dream I don't even want to be dreaming any more, but for whatever reason still seem to be.

How exactly does one wake up from a dream when one already thinks & feels they're awake?

While I have a pretty good idea about how to do that now, I know there's only one way to ever be sure, so that's just what I'm going to prove - to myself, not you.

You're more than welcome to come along for the ride or to stay exactly where you think & feel you are - it makes no real difference to me. I know I can't truly ever decide for you & I know for damn sure I'm not ever going to let anyone else decide for me.

Whichever way you ever decide to go, I know I’m going to free myself from the dream of this physical world – no matter what or how anyone else ever thinks&feels about it.

What I think&feel I would do if I were GoD is very different than what I think&feel GoD would do if GoD were me.

Being able to reconcile the difference between these two ideas makes all the difference in truly understanding why the world is the way it is.

Whether you think&feel there is a GoD or not doesn't even matter. I realize it might matter to you - however, just b/c something matters to you that doesn't necessarily mean it truly matters & it's understandable why you wouldn't want to perceive things that way.

Accepting the TRUTH for what it is & not just what they want it to be seems to be the most difficult thing for people to ever do.

Understanding always leads to wisdom & that's where knowledge rests.

Regardless of whether the world was created by GoD or not, it's still the same as it is now & how you perceive the world ultimately determines how you XPerience it.

Viewed from the perspective of weakness, there's definitely a lot of bullshit going on here to complain about. Viewed from perspective of strength, there shouldn't ever be anything to complain about & that's even hard for me to swallow most of the time, given some of the shit people do.

As far as I'm concerned, there's just way too much bullshit going on here for me to ever consider this physical waking world to be all there is to reality ever again & that's not to say reality isn't here.

No one can ever escape reality - not even in a motherfucking dream like the one we're all XPeriencing.

Things can only ever seem to be different than they always are b/c we can always imagine them differently. After we XPerience something, we have the ability to think&feel something else could have happened - if this & if that. Even when someone else XPeriences something, people often like to think&feel that could have just as easily been them. They don't know that, but they still can think&feel it.

That's a fucking absurd way to perceive the situation.

I can always imagine how things could be better or worse than they currently are & I always prefer to do the former rather than the later. Both ideas only ever serve to take my mind out of the present.

Could have, should have, would have is living in the past - MIND belongs in the present.

The past only ever seems to exist & the future doesn't ever exist until it's now.

When is it ever not now for everyone, except in their mind?

The only thing about us that can ever travel faster than the speed of light is our mind.

Everything naturally adapts to all the decisions you & everyone else make - the energy always flows & never stops. It's impossible to be perfectly still - it only seems that you can be & maybe that's good enough while you're still physically here.

Once the illusion has been accepted by your mind, it becomes reality to you & the dream is merely part of that XP.

The dream of this world & the illusion aren't the same.

Reality is the XP of the TRUTH.

In order for all of us to have minds&wills of our own that are always free, we must be able to XP both what is & isn't true - so we can decide for ourselves & know that we are the ones deciding.

There's just no other way for us to ever be certain.

I'm aware of what most of science likes to think&feel about the idea of freewill - I've heard all the arguments against it before. If you don't want to think&feel that your mind&will are free, simply don't - what difference does that ever make to me?

Everything you ever XPerience happens for a reason... you even get to decide.

It's always in your best interests to decide on a reason that does you the most good.

You can imagine whatever you want, then you always have your XP of the world to confirm your reasoning.

Does how you perceive the world play any part in how you XP it or not?

Who decides?

Creation is a work in progress until the Creation is finally complete. Anyone who has ever done anything creative is aware of this process.

Who decides when the work is done, if it isn't the Creator?

You are a Creator. While you may not be the sole Creator - at the very least, you are a co-Creator.

Every decision you ever make puts you at a certain place, at a certain time, where more decisions will always seem to need to be made.

Since everyone is doing this all the time, it's no wonder why things can quickly become chaotic - especially w/ everyone having different goals & agendas.

Is it even possible for everyone here to have the same goal & agenda?

Every decision you ever make essentially sends you to a parallel universe, there just isn't any cool visual effect to go along w/ the transition b/c it all happens faster than the speed of light in your mind. You take everyone & everything you think&feel is true w/ you every time you make that quantum leap.

Physically, nothing will seem to be any different - only how you perceive & XP it all will change b/c that's where Creation always begins & ends.

The physical waking world is the best multi-player game that will ever be created & being aware that it's all an illusion doesn't even seem to matter - it still works the same.

There's only one way in & one way out.

What better way to begin the game than to be born into it & what better way to end the XP than to physically die.

Someday it's going to be possible for technology to advance to the point where they can create an XP that is exactly like what you're XPeriencing now.

If you think&feel that will be possible in 100 years, or even 1000 years, what makes you think&feel it isn't what you're XPing right here, right now?

How could you ever tell the difference while you're still here playing?

Wouldn't that defeat the purpose?

Almost everything about the XP of this world is designed to keep you from ever being certain. The complexity keeps most people from ever even questioning the reality of it all.

The only problem w/ simulation theory is, if humans were to ever create such an XP, the glitches would be much more apparent & the flaws in the mechanics much easier to detect.

That’s why a higher form of intelligence must have been involved in the Creation of all this b/c it's completely organic.

Thinking&feeling it all happened at random or by chance is way more absurd to me than thinking&feeling it was GoD. Claiming it was random or by chance certainly doesn't explain the situation any better & so, it isn't much of an answer at all.

If I'm going to go w/ GoD, I have to understand what that truly means.

My idea of GoD has nothing to do w/ religion - the idea of GoD was around long before religion ever was.

While everyone can have their own idea about what GoD is, there are definitely a couple attributes that must be included in everyone's idea.

GoD must be eternal&limitless - there's just no getting around either of those.

What else could possible matter besides those two?

If you knew w/o a doubt that what you truly are is eternal&limitless, would you still think&feel the same way you do now about your situation & the situation of this world?

I'm certainly not saying you can't, but would you?

There's always going to be someone here who seems to have it better than someone else & someone who seems to have it worse.

Compared to what I perceive most people XPing, I'd say I've had it pretty fucking good & easy.

Who should I thank for that exactly?

I don't believe in luck & I don't think&feel GoD is something that exists separately from me or anyone else - it's the part of our minds that knows it is eternal&limitless & that part we are always free to deny.

If luck is at all involved in the equation & actually something real, then it all could be luck & how could you ever know for sure when something isn't luck?

Athiests often use luck like religious people tend to use GoD - to explain what they can't explain.

I'm exactly where I am now b/c of every decision I've ever made. While that might not be the only factor involved, it is the most important factor as far as I'm ever concerned - everything else is secondary to that. If that's true for me, it must be true for you.

It was either your decision to be here or someone or something else made the decision for you. You can even think&feel it all happened completely at random or by chance.

The choice is yours to make - even though you couldn't possibly know.

Whether you're aware of it or not, how you choose to perceive the situation definitely has a huge impact on the decisions you make.

What difference does the TRUTH of the matter really ever make now?

If I did this to myself, that's one thing & if someone or something else did it to me that's another. Which is actually true, does make a difference to me. Even if it all did happen at random or by chance, I still want to fucking know b/c it does affect my state of mind.

How can I possibly ever determine which is true?

While I may not ever be able to know the TRUTH of the situation, I can know which way of thinking&feeling about it all does me & those around me the most good b/c that is something I can XPerience - right here, right now.

No matter what the TRUTH is, I still have to deal w/ the situation I'm in. I've been dealt a hand to play & play it I must - no matter who's dealing.

The wisest thing for me to do is to come up w/ a way to perceive the situation that covers all bases & satisfies me no matter which idea is true.

Whether the life I'm living now is my one & only chance at existence or not, I may never know - not knowing actually makes it a far more interesting XPerience.

Never let anyone ever tell you that you have to leave or that you have to play along w/ the game they want to play.

Empathy doesn't ever require me to join in the suffering of others - that's something I refuse to do.

I played that motherfucking game for long enough. I got a new game to play now & you couldn't possibly convince me that other game is better b/c if it was - I'd still be fucking playing it.

I always support the dreamer - not the dream.

The dreamer will awaken if I have anything to say about & I know that I always do.

I am the dreamer of the dream - I'm just not so sure anymore whether or not I'm dreaming alone.

It certainly doesn't seem that I am & the fact that I don't want that to be true might be the only thing preventing me from proving it to myself beyond any doubt.

I only ever want to be myself w/o any bullshit & it took me a lot longer to figure out how best to do that than I would have liked had I known beforehand.

While what is considered bullshit is bound to vary from person to person, I don't ever need anyone else to tell me what bullshit is - bullshit can't ever help but give itself away.

As far as I know, I didn't fucking ask to be here - I have no recollection of ever having made such a decision. Neither do I have any memory of any existence before physically being here for the last 48 years & most of that time is a fucking blur.

What I always remember the most is the feeling - the sights & sounds only ever seem to come in flashes. A picture, a song, a smell, a taste - even a touch, can instantly take my mind back in time.

If I knew then what I know now, my whole life so far would have been a totally different XP. I can't know whether it would have been better or worse b/c I can't XP it any other way than the way I did. I can't even be sure I would know what I know now if I didn't XP everything exactly the way I did.

The only thing I can ever change about the past is how I choose to think&feel about it all now - that is something that's totally w/in my power to decide.

While there are plenty of things I would do differently, regretting anything about my past is pointless now - it's all just XP & I'm either satisfied w/ who I am now or I'm not.

There's no question in my mind about that anymore. Whether I'm satisfied w/ where I am still seems to vary - I certainly had my share of fun getting here & there's no denying that.

I can always think of someplace else I'd rather be & yet, at the same time, I can totally understand why I need to be exactly where I am.

I'm always where I need to be, to XP what I need to XP - there's just no better way to perceive the situation.

As far as I'm concerned, I'm the same as I ever was - same as I ever was. I'm just wiser now than I ever thought or felt I was before.

There are plenty of things here that I won't ever do - not under any circumstance & there are also plenty of things I have no interests of ever XPing. What all that is exactly truly only ever matters to me & how I came to be that way doesn't truly ever matter now - even tho I still might want to know. Whether it was nature or nurture, or some combination of the two, doesn't really ever matter b/c I don't really ever need to know.

I am the way I fucking am now - like it or not.

Whatever I didn't happen to like, I changed - by will alone.

Why would I ever change what I like?

Whatever physical aspects I don't happen to like about myself require physical effort to change & some of those things may even be impossible for me to ever change. I certainly can't seem to do it by will alone - not yet anyway & it doesn't take much thought to understand why that's the way things are here.

Since I've already convinced myself that everything physical is an illusion, none of that truly matters - though that still doesn't mean I don't care about it. It's impossible for me to ever convince myself that I don't care about the things I care about - I can only ever pretend that I don't care. There's always something about me that knows what I truly think&feel & it won't ever let me completely forget. The subconscious mind always reveals itself eventually - one way or another & usually when you least expect it.

The conscious mind can affect the subconscious mind over time, but the subconscious mind doesn't change until it's completely convinced.

I know I can deal w/ any & all bullshit that ever happens to come my way, including any thoughts&feelings that I don't happen to like. I've proven this to myself enough times by now to say I know. Knowing this does give me peace of mind most of the time & I always forgive myself whenever I happen to forget b/c being here makes it easy to forget. There are always plenty of things here to distract your mind from remembering what it should already know.

Just b/c I don't want to do something or XP something that doesn't mean I don't want anyone else to be able to do or XP those things.

If I truly want to be free, I have to be willing to allow everyone else to be free & that's not always easy given some of the bullshit people seem to want to do.

As long you're not trying to force someone else to do something against their will, I don't have any problem w/ anything you might want to do or XP.

If you're doing something in my presence, you're asking my permission - whether you're aware of it or not. If I ever have a problem w/ something someone is doing in my presence, I let them know in that moment - as long as I truly feel the need. Their reaction to my reaction & my reaction to theirs tells me everything I need to know about what I will need to do next to maintain my own peace of mind. Sometimes that requires I do something & sometimes it requires I do nothing at all.

I'm certainly not afraid to momentarily give up my peace of mind, when I truly feel the need & I'm far more willing to give up my peace of mind than my freedom - although neither should ever be required.

There are ways to deal w/ any situation w/o that ever being necessary.

Peace of mind is never more than one thought away from my awareness - I only have to want it more than anything else.

Maintaining my peace of mind while all the bullshit continues to go on all around me has certainly proven to be a bit of a challenge. It's not that I mind a challenge every now & then, it's just the bullshit I always think&feel I could do w/o.

If it wasn't for all the bullshit, the XP of this world wouldn't be much of a challenge at all & physically, there doesn’t seem to be complete escape from other people’s bullshit here - mentally, there always is.

I never have any problem dealing w/ my own bullshit - I'm more aware of it now than ever before. The feeling always gives itself away.

If I'm not vigilant, there's the possibility I just might slip into a dream & the more time you spend in a dream, the more likely you are to forget that you're dreaming.

The dream of this physical world is all the bullshit we were taught to think&feel is true that isn't. Since everything we were taught wasn't bullshit, learning to separate the wisdom from the bullshit is crucial to truly understanding.

You already know that you can think something that isn't true, so you should also be aware that you can feel something that isn't.

I don't ever want to have force my will over anyone else & I won't stand for anyone trying to force their will over me. That frame of mind is bound to create some conflict for me in this world from time to time - there always seems to be someone here who likes to think&feel they have authority over me. How I go about dealing w/ that kind of bullshit whenever it occurs is always up to me - no one else ever gets to decide that for me & sometimes I do still like to improvise. I just wouldn't feel as free w/o that ability.

If you knew everything there was to know & could do everything there is do, why would you ever need anyone else?

You would actually have to want them to be around for them to serve any purpose at all.

No one ever wants to be completely all alone - you might want to be left alone, but that's hardly the same idea.

When the dream can no longer be discerned from the illusion or reality - what meaning or value does the TRUTH still have?

Most people still seem to want the foundation of the TRUTH to be based on the physical - yet, everyone knows that nothing physical lasts. Everything physical ultimately gives way to entropy.

Whether you're ever going to be willing to admit it or accept it, anything that doesn't last is an illusion.

Physical matter isn't an illusion - it's the form that it takes that's an illusion.

In order to feel anything, something physical is required - that gives it a purpose.

Everything physical is made of energy vibrating at very specific frequencies & wavelengths. If the physics were even slightly different, we wouldn't & couldn't be here in the way that we are now.

It's all energy - which means you are energy.

It's energy that always keeps everything together & moving - w/o question & w/o judgment.

What else do you fucking want from GoD?

Energy can neither be created nor destroyed - tho it can change form.

Does energy have any choice in the matter?

It certainly doesn't seem to - not w/o a mind or will being behind it.

Energy is omniscient, omnipotent & omnipresent.

Energy is intelligent in a way that's difficult for us to understand, but not impossible.

We are an extension of that intelligence - we provide both the mind & the will.

The energy just does what it's told.

Energy always takes the path of least resistance. When met w/ enough resistance, energy fucking explodes b/c that becomes the path of least resistance.

Whether something decided that's the way it should be or whether that's just the way it's always been, doesn't really make any difference now.

If you don't think&feel that what you truly are is eternal&limitless, you must think&feel that what you truly are is temporary & limited.

There is no motherfucking compromise between these two ideas.

Whether you're aware of it or not, you've already made a decision about this - you decide w/ every thought that ever crosses your mind & you accept as being true.

What you truly think&feel you are determines how you react to anything & everything you ever perceive & XP. You're telling yourself what you truly think&feel you are simply by how you react - even though it's usually subconscious. It doesn't have to be.

If you believe in GoD, you must admit, at some point, GoD must have been all alone.

One is the lonliest number & zero doesn't mean anything until it's added to one.

0 + 1 = 1, but put a 0 after 1 & you get 10. Combine 1's & 0's into infinite combinations & you get binary code - the basis of everything physical & every game ever made.

GoD must have decided to give up being GoD, so something else could exist. That’s probably why the Bible says GoD gave it all a rest on the seventh day.

GoD slipped into a dream & became HuMaN - that's how the ONE became many.

How can anyone possibly have any respect for a GoD that wouldn't be willing to go thru the XP itself?

MaN is described as being both male&female before ever getting a physical body. Duality was the first illusion. MaN doesn’t get a physical body until Chapter 2 - that's also when he gets a name & a companion.

For GoD to be GoD, at some point, GoD must have been the only intelligent being that existed. Being the only being, GoD wouldn't need a name.

The Jewish name for GoD is Yud Hei Vav Hei - if you stack those letters on top of each other, they make the shape of a HuMaN being. The idea of that is also represented as the Tree of Life, a diagram that shows how energy flows - in a simple, yet abstract way.

Think of all that what you will - that knowledge has been around a lot longer than anything else. Like everything else, it's up to interpretation & who is doing the interpreting can make all the difference.

I understand why someone might want to resist accepting the idea of GoD & no one can truly ever force anyone else to accept the idea. While accepting the idea certainly isn't necessary to exist here, that doesn't mean the idea isn't useful.

Resistance creates friction & nothing physical would exist w/o friction.

Trying to define the path of least resistance any further is always bound to result in errors b/c you're merely taking away the possibilities - that doesn't mean one can't try.

The path of least resistance is naturally going to be slightly different for everyone - however, the idea is exactly the same.

Energy is both physical & non-physical.

Only 5% of the energy in the known universe is physical.

Thought is energy w/o form.

You know that your physical body is useless to you w/o your mind - there's no doubt of this. Whether your mind is useless to you w/o your physical body is unknown - there's still some doubt.

You might not think&feel you have any doubt - however, it still can't be scientifically proven either way.

Whether the mind only exist b/c of the brain or whether the brain only exist b/c of the mind will continue to be up for debate until it's finally proven. While the majority of the evidence might suggest one way of thinking&feeling about it is more likely than the other, everyone can still always believe whatever the fuck they want.

What you believe is simply what you think&feel is true at any given moment.

That's a choice.

No matter what anyone ever thinks&feels, someone else can always disagree w/ them.

How is that ever going to change?

If the TRUTH of the matter could be proven beyond any doubt, you wouldn't be able to decide for yourself & then how could you possibly ever think&feel that you are free?

Would you ever be willing to give up freedom for peace of mind - if you knew that you wouldn't like the TRUTH?

Only you can truly think&feel less of yourself for what you choose to think&feel - it only seems that others can. Someone else's opinion can truly only matter to you if you let it.

No one ever wants to be wrong about what they think&feel is true - unless they don't happen to like whatever it is & even that usually isn't enough to make them change their mind about it.

What you think&feel is true will always seem very real to you & that should tell you something very real about the power of your mind&will.

Having blind faith in anything isn't ever wise - that doesn't mean you can't use it if you want to.

Focus & awareness will always serve you far better than faith ever will - at least, until you know.

It's always better to know than to just believe.

Knowledge is beyond belief. Once you know, belief is no longer necessary - faith&trust still are.

Everyone has faith&trust in what they think&feel is true.

When you know something there shouldn't be anything anyone else could possibly ever say against it that would upset you in any way & no one could possibly fool you into thinking&feeling something else is true - you would know better.

By letting yourself be upset, you're only revealing your own doubts.

Illusions only ever fight w/ other illusions & always for which is more true - something none of them can ever be. This battle is always being fought w/in your own mind & what you perceive is merely a reflection of what's going on in everyone's mind.

TRUTH can always afford to be silent b/c it's never in danger of not being true.

Silence is golden.

There is strength in silence.

Who truly values the weakness of anything?

How could basing a system of thought on something weak ever be considered wise?

Thinking you know the TRUTH is always better than thinking you don't b/c what you think you know will always prove itself to you faster.

At any given moment, you can change your mind about anything & everything you think&feel is true - as long as you can convince yourself.

MIND can always think of anything & everything w/o limit. Limitation only ever comes to MIND when thought takes form.

The body isn't a limitation - it's a limiter.

Emotions always come from feelings & feelings always come from thoughts.

Feelings provide a feedback loop for thought - one that wouldn't exist otherwise.

Whether you're aware of it or not, the order of things has already been well established & this must be for everyone's benefit - though you're certainly free to disagree.

Since feelings can influence thought, determining the order of things might seem difficult at first. To prove it to yourself, all you ever have to do is start paying closer attention to your thoughts&feelings as they occur. All that requires is for you to focus your awareness more inward than outward.

After doing this for a little while, the order will become apparent.

You can always quite a feeling you don't like w/ better thoughts.

Since you can also reinforce a feeling you don't like w/ more thoughts that support it, the choice is truly yours to make - whether you ever become aware of this or not.

It's always to your advantage to be aware rather than unaware.

You are an avatar of your own thoughts&feelings - decide for yourself if that ever means you are conscious.

Being conscious & being aware aren't the same idea. You can be conscious w/o being aware, but you can't be aware w/o being conscious. That has less to do w/ the state of your physical body & everything to do w/ the state of your mind.

The state of you mind always affects the state of your physical body - the state of your physical body can only affect the state of your mind - if you let it.

Who's in charge - the body or the mind?

The brain is just part of the body. Damage the brain & you certainly do seem to damage the mind, but maybe you're only damaging the receiver of mind - mind isn't physical.

How one chooses to think&feel about it is a decision everyone must make for themselves b/c no one truly knows.

The best way to think&feel about it is the way that does you the most good.

How does one truly determine which way that is other than thru XP?

Everyone believes what makes them feel better, even atheists.

Do you want to feel better now or later?

The reason things are ordered the way they are is to always give you time to decide how you're going to react - so you can change your mind before you do.

That's adaptability.

No one here could possibly handle XPeriencing everything they think as soon as they think it - you actually want there to be a bit of lag & so there is. Most of the functions your physical body performs you truly don't want to have to think about - your physical body naturally takes care of all that for you. Some of that it seems you can influence & some of that it seems you can't.

The placebo effect has been proven to work.

How is that even possible if mind can't affect matter?

How you react to anything & everything you ever perceive & XP tells you all you need to know about where your mind is truly at - it leaves no room for doubt.

It's the only thing here that you can ever do by will alone & that's the key that opens the door to another world of XP.

Once again, nothing physically will seem to change - how you perceive & XP it all will.

Thought is the cause of everything - it's just not the source b/c the source of a thought is either true or it isn't.

The difference that currently exists in our minds about what it means to be awake & what it means to be asleep is exactly the kind of separation the dream needs us to accept for it to continue to seem like reality to us.

The dream is just a bad program running in our minds - taught to us by people who didn't know, but thought&felt they did. This bullshit has been going on for so long now, no one even remembers when it all started. While the idea itself may have developed from nature, there are definitely those who have taken advantage of the situation along the way & they know exactly what they're doing - they just don't ever want us to know.

That's getting more & more difficult for them. They're still pretty good at pretending that they care - however, their words & actions always give their real thoughts&feelings away.

By their fruits you shall know them.

The real difference between being awake as opposed to being asleep&dreaming is simply a matter of what you happen to be thinking&feeling at any given moment - regardless of whether you're physically awake or asleep.

Since that probably isn't something you've ever been taught, it's understandable why it might be difficult for you to accept.

What do you even know that someone else didn't tell you?

Whether you're aware of it or not, there are a few ideas you came into this world w/ - nothing too specific - it's more of a feeling.

The most useful ideas to me that I've ever known are what I like & what I don't like - what I mind & don't mind. No one ever had to tell me any of those things, I just had to XP enough different shit over a certain period of time in order to be able to decide for myself. Both, what I like & what I don't like, funnel my thoughts in the same direction - a direction I always want to go. While there may have been some doubt in my mind about what all that is in the past, that is no longer the case.

If I don't fucking know by now, then nobody fucking knows & how can't I fucking know by now?

When I think back about the whole XP, there truly wasn't ever any choice involved - there only ever seemed to be b/c of all the different things I had to choose between.

That's both the illusion & the reality of my situation here.

Something only ever matters to me when I mind - or - nothing ever matters to me unless I mind.

Who decides what is something & what is nothing if it isn't always me?

I truly don't ever want to decide for anyone else b/c I truly don't want anyone else to ever decide for me.

I truly don't need everyone else to think exactly the way I think, to feel exactly the way I feel, to say exactly what I say, or to do exactly what I do.

While I do enjoy the XP of it all, everyone has a limit of what they're willing to put up w/ - you can't truly be limitless otherwise. If you truly don't understand why that's not a contradiction, you haven't thought about it long enough.

There's never any problem at all until someone tries to make me do something against my will or stop me from doing something I want to do b/c I know there's nothing that I ever want to do that gives anyone else the right to do that.

No one ever needs to be afraid of anything that I ever might want to do & the fact that others don't know that is all that ever makes it a problem.

This world is full of laws that people have made to protect themselves from what others might want to do & while that may be necessary to some degree, given some of the bullshit people are willing to do to others - it's bullshit once the enforcement of those laws becomes a business.

Unless you're repeatedly being provoked, the first person to use physical force in any situation is always the one who's most afraid.

Those who often use physical force against others will always seem to have good reasons for why they act first & those reasons are always an attempt to hide the TRUTH from their own awareness.

Make up all the reasons & excuses you want - who would ever put a pussy in charge of anything? How is that ever wise?

If you have to physically force someone else to bend to your will that proves you aren't in a position of authority & since the idea of that seems to go against the way this world is being run, it only proves proves there are a bunch of pussies in charge.

If you think being a pussy has anything to do w/ whether or not you actually have one, you're mistaken - being a pussy is totally mental.

People who are pussies have been getting people who aren't pussies to do their dirty work for them for a long motherfucking time.

Those who always like to think&feel they have authority over others must truly need to be in those positions - they'd be too afraid if they weren't & that would force them to have to deal w/ those kinds of thoughts&feelings before they are truly ready.

That's the only explanation that could possibly even justify why the people who are in charge seem to be in charge - at least, in a world that GoD created.

The only person I ever want to be in charge of is myself & a pussy isn't something I've ever wanted to be.

If there's one thing I've proven to myself beyond any doubt - it's that I'm no motherfucking pussy.

I always take full responsibility for my own thoughts & actions. I know that no one here truly has any authority over me & even tho there are many people here who seem to like to think&feel they do - it's not ever necessary.

All that kind of bullshit will take care of itself in time - I only deal w/ it when I have to.

If anyone ever needs my help, all they ever have to do is ask. How I go about helping them is always my decision - not theirs. I always try to help others in the best way possible - both for them & myself.

Life is an individual as well as a shared XPerience. Your thoughts&feelings at any given moment will determine how well you deal w/ any situation or circumstance you ever happen to find yourself in.

The thoughts&feelings you always have are exactly the same whether you're physically awake or asleep. The thoughts&feelings you have when you're physically awake are the same ones you take w/ you into that other state of mind where anything & everything can be XPerienced. Anything you happen to fear will definitely be XPd there.

You can XP that state of mind either by physically going to sleep or by taking certain drugs.

Since you do spend the majority of your time being physically awake, of course, that XP is naturally going to the basis for what you think&feel is real&true - that is when you seem to have the most control over your mind & that's why the XP of the physical usually seems to be what is the most real to almost everyone. It's only when you're physically awake that you can seem to escape all your fearful thoughts.

The best illusion is always going to be the one you think&feel is real&true - it wouldn't be a very effective illusion otherwise.

XPerience is still XPerience - in this dimension or any other.

Just b/c what you XP when you're physically asleep&dreaming isn't physically happening to you that doesn't make it any less real. I understand why you might want to disagree, but while it's happening, you usually don't even notice the difference - it feels as real to you as anything else you ever XP.

Everything you ever XP has an effect on your state of mind - if you continue to let it.

You can't truly ever fool yourself about anything you ever XP - there's always something about you that knows what you truly think&feel - even if it isn't true. While it seems that you can fool yourself & others for a little while, eventually what you truly think&feel always reveals itself - one way or another & usually when you least expect it.

Pete & Repete were sitting on a fence...

The physical world merely provides a more stable environment for you to learn how to better focus & direct your mind - things are far less likely to change abruptly & at the same time that doesn't mean they won't.

If everything you were to ever XP were like what you XP when you're physically asleep&dreaming, it would be much more difficult for you to learn to focus your mind & build your confidence.

Since your physically sleeping dreams are often difficult to recall & what occurs during them is usually very abstract that only makes it much easier for you to brush the XP off as meaningless.

If you don't remember your dreams at all, it's even easier - but everyone still dreams.

How long does the feeling of a dream usually last once you awaken, even if you don't remember what happened exactly?

We have two ideas in our mind about what it means to dream - one for when we're physically awake & one for when we're physically asleep. We only have one idea about what it means to be awake & one for what it means to be asleep.

Does having only one meaning for something make it easier for us to convince ourselves that it's true - even if it isn't?

Why do we remember things we'd rather forget & forget things we'd rather remember?

You only ever remember what you need to remember & you only forget to remember better.

There's just no better way to perceive the situation.

Can something someone doesn't even remember XPing while they were physically awake still have an effect on their state of mind?

If that's possible for what you XP when you're physically awake, then it must also be possible for what you XP when you're physically asleep&dreaming.

What's the real difference now between something you XPd yesterday while you were physically awake & something you XPd last night in a dream while you were physically asleep?

Neither XP exists now, except in your mind - so there truly is no difference.

You're still the only one who can ever give meaning&value to anything & everything you ever XP.

Why would you ever want it to be any other way?

Everything you XP when you're physically asleep&dreaming always manifests itself somehow in this world & vice versa - each XP plays off the other - so you can learn how to deal w/ those kinds of thoughts&feelings at your own pace.

There isn't anything that you ever XP that you can't handle - either here or there. You're always free to use all of your XPs, either to your advantage or your disadvantage.

Why would you ever choose to use them to your disadvantage?

As far as we know, we're the only beings in existence that can even think about all this shit. Even if there are other beings who share this ability w/ us, if we can't interact w/ them in any meaningful way then they may as well not even exist.

For all the people who claim to interact w/ or be in contact w/ such beings, there isn't anything that any one of them has ever shared w/ us that we couldn't have come up w/ on our own. If other beings do exist at all, they don't know any more than we do about what we're fucking doing here.

We're the only beings here that care about shit the way we do & we're the only beings here who actually have the ability to truly understand the situation we all seem to be in.

Nature doesn't seem to care any more about us than any other living thing & why should it?

We're still part of nature b/c we came from it.

Before us, no one was even keeping track of time or what was happening here.

Energy itself doesn't seem to give a fuck about us or our physical bodies - they last as long as they last & the body count of human history proves that beyond any doubt.

Who wants to live forever? Who doesn't?

Just b/c energy doesn't seem to care about our physical bodies that doesn't mean it doesn't care about our minds.

Maybe mind is all that's truly important - but what's a mind w/o a physical body?

If GoD does exist, & GoD did create us, then we must be a part of whatever that is, which would mean we can't truly be separate from it.

If GoD does not exist, the situation of the world seems to make much more sense & then who is there to complain about the situation to besides ourselves?

Everything that's wrong w/ this world is b/c of the decisions that people have made & continue to make.

Given what most people like to think&feel GoD is, it's difficult to explain why God doesn't do something about the situation.

If you believe in GoD, you have to find some way to rationalize or justify why there's so much bullshit going on in the world that GoD doesn't do anything about & that always comes down to what you think&feel GoD is.

Would you ever accept any excuse for father not doing everything he can to help his family if he is able?

Why would you accept any less from a GoD who's called the Father of everything?

So far, I haven't heard any explanation for this that makes more sense than the one I got.

I think&feel there is plenty of evidence for the existence an intelligence superior to humans & I just can't convince myself otherwise - I've tried. At the same time, I don't accept any religions version of GoD - they've all proven themselves to be unreliable.

If GoD doesn't exist, then I can be GoD & if I didn't have such an easy way to prove it to myself, I probably would think&feel the whole idea is fucking insane - but I do.

Proving it is both the easiest & the hardest thing you can ever do at the same fucking time - as it should be.

I already told you how to do it - do you even remember?

It's simply a matter of will.

I am yin & I am yang.

There aren't two opposing forces of energy at work in the world & universe - neither can exist w/o the other. They both must always work together to maintain a balance & that truly makes them one, even though they appear to be two.

Appearances do not make reality - they make the illusion of reality.

Both forces of energy exist w/in everything - positive&negative - yin&yang - male&female.

Apres moi le deluge - Jamais deux sans trois.

If you want to control what others think&feel, say & do, it's best to keep them conflicted & confused. If you can get them to do it all to themselves, that's even better. To do that, all you have to do is constantly play both sides against each other.

The illusions you like can have the same effect on your mind as the ones you don't - it just doesn't always feel that way. That's why duality works so well. You can't ever seem to XP what you like w/o eventually XPing what you don't like & the thought of the contrast merely helps to keep the reality of both always in your mind.

Eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good & Evil wasn't ever forbidden - it was merely strongly suggested against doing b/c of the effect it would have on your mind.

Who told you you were naked?

Answer the fucking question!

It's all good - it's only a matter of how you choose to perceive the XP & that's a decision everyone must make for themselves.

It's always either perceived from weakness or strength.

Comparing your XP to someone else's will always lead your mind astray.

You can't truly know why someone else might want or need to XP something - you can always know why you do. While you may not like the answers you come up w/, you can always change your mind about them.

Everyone knows the best lies are mostly true & no one here is a better liar than me.

Do you understand what I'm truly saying there, or do you only think you do?

If we all truly are one then we must all be equal & the same in all that truly matters & no one can truly have authority over anyone else.

Since that's certainly not the way things seem to be here, either something must be very wrong or the idea itself is total bullshit.

Decide for yourself which it is - I've already decided.

While the potential for things to be that way always seems to exist, the probability of things being that way always seems very small - more like slim to none.

We all truly can share ONE MIND & ONE WILL & physically, we're already 99.something% the same - so, what's the fucking problem?

Change truly needs to happen from the top down, not the bottom up - otherwise, it will take fucking forever.

As an individual, that means it all must start w/ what's going on in your own mind.

Reality is always going to be the XP of TRUTH - no matter where you ever are.

TRUTH ensures that energy always takes the path of least resistance - no matter what.

The path of least resistance isn't always the most fun & a little bit of friction is always good - if you know what I mean.

To know is to be certain.

Contrary to popular belief there are not levels or degrees of certainty.

You can't ever try to change or lessen the meaning of something w/ only one true meaning w/o deceiving yourself in the process.

If there is ever any doubt in your mind about something, then you don't fucking know.

On the flipside, just b/c you might not have any doubt in your mind about something that doesn't necessarily mean you know the TRUTH.

WHAT IS TRUE MUST BE TRUE FOR EVERYONE - ALL THE TIME.

There's no fucking getting around that - not if TRUTH is to have any meaning of value.

How you come to that realization seems to be totally up to you for now - however, everyone will come around eventually - one way or another. We're all being led in the same direction - just like we're all flying around the universe on the same fucking rock.

Everyone values the TRUTH - even liars & you can only lie to yourself for so long.

Freewill always gives you the ability to accept or deny the TRUTH & you do that w/ every decision you ever make - w/ anything & everything you ever think&feel is real&true.

There is no punishment that goes along w/ your decision - at least, not any that you don't call down upon yourself. Ego always takes care of itself in time - it's nothing to ever worry about.

You ask for everything you ever XP, whether you're aware of how you're asking for it or not.

That's the power of a mind&will that's truly free.

W/o the fear of punishment, guilt wouldn't ever have any meaning or value to you.

Guilt is a bullshit idea & the sooner you become aware of this the better.

They started teaching people that kind of bullshit b/c they knew they couldn't possibly watch everyone all the time & you already know who "they" are - they're always the ones who think&feel they have authority over you & everyone else.

Only what is true is ever real - anything else must be an illusion.

If you can't tell the difference, whose fault is that?

I'm not talking about what most people would agree on as being true, I'm talking about the actual TRUTH, which always has to be true in order to have ever been true in the first place. The fact that TRUTH doesn't ever change is exactly what gives it meaning & value to everyone - all the time.

Anything that doesn't meet that one requirement, doesn't truly fucking matter - even though it still might matter to you.

Your refusal to accept this as a fact is what causes all conflict in your mind.

An idea is only as good as its source.

If you weren't free to choose one way, you wouldn't be free to choose the other.

If you couldn't decide for yourself, how could you ever know that you are truly free?

TRUTH is objective, even tho it can seem to be subjective. TRUTH must be absolute - however, that doesn't mean it can't be flexible. Flexibility only adds to strength - it takes nothing away.

If you think&feel that contradicts freewill, then you are merely mistaken.

FREEDOM only exist in accepting the TRUTH for what it is, not just what you want it to be b/c it doesn't fucking ever change.

That's why the TRUTH isn't something physical - it's merely XPerienced thru the use of the physical.

You are not your physical body - you are merely using a physical body.

Your can consider your physical body to be your temple while you're still using it & the only thing that gives a temple any meaning or value is the altar w/in the temple.

Your mind is the altar b/c that's where the decision to sacrifice is always made.

Sacrifice is another bullshit idea & I understand why that may be difficult for you to accept as well.

If you value sacrifice, you must think&feel it's necessary & that's what gives it meaning to you. I'm not saying you can't do that b/c obviously you can.

No sacrifice is ever required or ever being asked of you - you can only ask it of yourself & that's a decision you must always make for yourself - just like any other.

Is it a sacrifice to give up nothing?

Your physical body is nothing that only seems like something - just like your ego. They're both illusions - they were made they weren't created.

What's created last forever - it's limitless&eternal.

My physical body certainly matters to me while I'm still using it - if it didn't, the illusion wouldn't be as effective.

All illusions are meant to be used - it's their only reason for even seeming to exist.

How I react to anything & everything I perceive & XP tells me all I ever need to know...

It all comes down to what you truly think&feel you are.

Whether you're aware of it or not, you've already made a decision about that for both yourself & everyone else & you're still always free to change your mind w/o the fear of punishment.

Your decision for yourself is always your decision for eveyone else & vice versa.

Pi & Phi are infinite - to make good use of them, they need to be made finite. That's why they work just fine when you want to build something physical.

Everything physical serves a higher purpose & mind is always what decides.

Science has already proven the illusion of everything physical. The idea just hasn't been widely accepted yet b/c most people don't want it to be true.

Since it doesn't seem to make much of difference to our daily physical XP, it's easy for people to ignore the TRUTH of it. Since it has a tremendous impact on everyone's state of mind, it actually does make much more of a difference than most people are ever willing to admit. The idea always seems to remain hidden in the subconscious, until it bubbles to the surface. You don't ever have to think about it if you don't want to & once you start, it's difficult to stop. Either way, you still have to deal w/ it.

You can't force someone else to be happy & you can't force someone else to stop being afraid - however, you can always force yourself. At the same time, you can help others to understand w/o causing them any harm.

If you think&feel you can harm others, you are telling yourself that others can harm you as well. That's how you often ask for the XP of something w/o being aware of it. That's what duality tends to do to the mind. All that leaves is the XP & XP will ultimately prove everything to you - until you change your mind about it b/c that can be XPd as well.

You can apply the idea of the path of least resistance to both the physical & non-physical aspects of your XP here - that doesn't mean you always have to take that path.

The path of least resistance for you physically may not match the path of least resistance for you mentally.

Which has more of an influence over you?

Who gets to decide?

Friction is what made everything physical possible - only you know what will truly give you peace of mind.

If you want some evidence of the illusion of everything physical, study the atom. There's even a table of all the elements everything physical is made of & it's not that big of a table.

Each element has a specific name & number. While humans are responsible for the names, the numbers seem to have taken care of themselves.

All the elements are perfectly ordered.

Whether that happened naturally on its own, or whether some form of intelligence decided that's the way things should be, seems like something that always going to be up for debate.

Whichever way you currently happen to think&feel about it, the fact that the elements are perfectly ordered does prove that there is an order to everything physical & whether you like it or not, order does imply some form of intelligence.

Determining what that intelligence is exactly is left for everyone to decide for themselves.

Whatever the TRUTH of the matter is - it must already be true.

That doesn't mean there still can't be an element of randomness to the whole process & even that could merely be part of the illusion. To know for sure, you'd have to be able to figure out all the angles & who here is capable of that?

Thankfully, I know I don't ever need to figure out all the angles - nor do I even want to.

Everything moves in circles & there's plenty of evidence for that.

The whole XP is fractal - the closer you look, the more illusive the answer always seems to get & it doesn't even matter which way you look.

The search for an answer that satisfies does seem to keep everyone plenty busy.

What else would everyone do w/ all their time?

That's movement&repose. It's all a dance. It's music. It's art. It's science. It's a comedy & a tragedy.

The whole spectrum can be XPerienced - or - you can ride a rainbow thru the eye of a needle.

You can't know exactly what's going to happen when you're no longer physcially here until you actually XP it - until then, you're free to think&feel whatever you want.

The best idea to me is always going to be the one that does me & those around me the most good now, not later. Fuck later.

The moment is all there truly ever is & I know if I always take care of the moment, later will always take care of itself. I've proven this to myself enough times by now & for long enough to say I know.

If you think&feel I ever have to prove to you what I've already proven to myself, you're sorely fucking mistaken.

I always seem to walking the razor's edge of I could & couldn't care less what anyone else thinks or feels about any of this. I can always see both edges of the path I'm walking now & I'm not afraid of falling. I've falling many times already & I've always been able to get back up. If I ever happen to need a helping hand, one always seems to be there.

I've also jumped into the abyss so many times now that it's beginning to lose all its appeal. While I'll usually prefer to do a cannonball whenever I jump, sometimes I like to do a swan dive or maybe even a big belly flop. I never decide until the last possible moment & everything afterward I usually just improvise.

Every time I've ever made that leap, I've always found myself right back on what seems to be the same path - maybe a little wiser - maybe not. Even that hardly seems to matter anymore.

Now I know I can always handle whatever happens to occur - w/o ever having to give up my freedom or my peace of mind & at the same time, I also know my patience is always going to be tested while I'm still physically here. That just seems to be a given.

How do I know that I'm always taking care of the moment?

Simply by what I happen to be thinking&feeling at any given moment.

If I don't like what I'm thinking&feeling - I simply change my mind & while that hasn't always been so easy, it is now.

You can't change your XP of the world w/o changing your mind about it all first.

Where there is peace, there cannot be conflict.

I always know when my peace of mind is about to be disturbed.

If you're always ready, you never have to get ready - it shouldn't ever be a surprise.

Life is always a state of mind - it's an individual as well as a shared XP. The better you're able to focus & direct your mind, the better the XP will be - always move towards the light - or not.

The part is whole & the whole is in every part.

Your mind is never split in two - it's always WHOLE.

The left & right hemispheres must always work together to find a balance - that's why the whole XP is both a particle & a wave.

Whenever you're conflicted about something, your mind only seems to be split.

Either what you're thinking&feeling are out of line w/ each other or you're resisting the flow of energy thru you & that kind of pressure can only buildup for so long before it blows.

The path of least resistance works as long as your mind & your body can take moving in that direction - the mind is always what decides.

You have the ability to control the flow of energy w/ just your thoughts alone. How you feel always let's you know if you're going in the right direction.

Somewhere along the line, WHOLENESS got interpreted to mean HOLINESS, making the idea seem like it's something special that only a few people can have access to & that's just more bullshit.

Everyone here always has the potential w/in them to recognize their WHOLENESS - that's what is meant by Christ MIND or Buddha MIND.

ONENESS & WHOLENESS is your reality & you're always free to think&feel differently about yourself.

If we were properly taught this from an early age, it would be much easier for us to deal w/ all the bullshit.

To be able to truly understand why things are the way they seem/are, it's helpful to at least consider the idea of GoD & to understand what it would truly mean to be GoD.

If you were created by GoD, you must be like GoD in every way. Like creates like.

Imperfection can only be perfection to perfection.

Even if you don't think&feel there is a GoD, you still must be aware of the idea.

Don't bother thinking&feeling that it's an idea that can't even be imagined b/c the imagination is infinite - it can be infinite b/c it isn't something physical.

If you don't even want to consider the idea, that's another story altogether.

Feel free to quit reading at any time - I promise I won't be the least bit offended, it's almost over anyway.

It's simply a thought XPeriment.

Infinity & nothing are the two extremes of MIND - neither can physically exist - they can only exist as ideas in the MIND.

The closer you get to absolute zero the crazier shit gets & the same could also be said of infinity.

Since MIND can always go in any direction, regardless of space&time - it's only wise to have a way to better focus & direct that energy.

Everything physical can either be used to help focus or distract your mind.

If you're one of those "the mind only exist b/c of the brain" people, then I would suggest to you that the universe is just one huge motherfucking brain. If you want some evidence of that, google or bing, the universe & brain cells - a picture is worth a thousand words.

While that may not be proof, it is evidence.

No one would ever continue to pursue a goal they know can't ever be achieved - there must always be some hope present in their mind.

Hope is a placebo & once again, placeboes have been proven to work.

The only way to deceive a mind that is truly free w/o ever going against its will is by constantly distracting it w/ bullshit - fear & desire. That's playing both sides.

Fear is an illusion - the feeling is real, it's what you think about the feeling that's an illusion.

The feeling is meant to be a warning, telling you to pay closer attention to what you're doing & what's going on around you whenever you happen to feel it. The feeling is always meant be used to your advantage, never your disadvantage.

Fear seems to be legion - we've given it many meanings that have no real value to us.

Once you learn to master the feeling in just a few of its many forms, you will no longer want to call it by fear's name & you will be able to make much better use of the feeling whenever it occurs.

Desire & temptation are the difference between an eternal rising & an infernal fall.

Desire feels like something real - temptation is just a bullshit idea.

Both ideas will always keep you searching for something & that decision is always yours to make. As long as you have questions, you will continue to search for answers.

It's like looking for a needle in a haystack w/o ever realizing that you are the needle.

Desire arises out of a sense of lack. You can't desire what you already have - you can only desire to keep what you already have & that would mean that you must think&feel it's possibly for you to lose possession of whatever that is.

The desire for what you don't think&feel you already have & the fear of losing what you do have can have a tremendous impact on your state of mind - if you let it.

It's a very different game when we're talking about something physical as opposed to something non-physical.

In both games, you can't possibly give what you don't already have.

When we're talking about something non-physical, giving is how you know what you have & that's also how you keep awareness of it.

Giving & receiving are the same - they always happen at the same time - nothing is ever lost & everything is gained.

An idea that is shared loses nothing by being shared.

You always keep what you give.

You always keep the thoughts&feelings you give to both yourself & others - that's how the mind fucking works.

Most of that usually goes unnoticed b/c it's subconscious, but it doesn't have to be.

If I truly think&feel that I have everything I need, all that leaves is what I want.

Why would I ever want what I don't need?

Everyone wants what they want - whether they need it or not.

If I don't need what I want, how much less do I need what I don't want?

I've always had everything I ever needed & I've never had everything I ever wanted - been close a few times, but something always seemed to be missing & there always seems to be some bullshit to go along w/ it. I can't ever seem to have exactly what I want w/o having to do something I don't want - maybe that's just part of the deal - maybe that's the price of existence. There's no point in complaining about it - there's either something I can do about the situation or there isn't & I already know there is.

There must be a reason for things to be that way & I know I can make up any reason I fucking want - as long as I can convince myself that it's true. No one can ever stop me from doing this.

It's always in my best interests to come up w/ a reason that does me more good & that's always an option. If you don't want to think&feel there is a reason, you are free to do that as well.

Why would you when you know you can always think of something better?

Your mind&will aren't truly your own until you're willing to take full responsibility for all your thoughts&feelings - sorting out which thoughts&feelings are truly your own is part of the challenge.

Everyone here has been programmed&conditioned in some form or fashion from the moment they first arrived. The programming&conditioning only varies slightly from culture to culture - the base program is always the same: CONFORM TO AUTHORITY & DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD.

Where & when you are born determines the exact programming&conditioning you receive.

The reason the base program doesn't always take is b/c it's bullshit.

By the time it even seems that you can decide for yourself, the programming&conditioning you received has already taken a hold of your mind. If you want to break free, you have to become more aware & once you're aware, you still need to have the desire to break free.

How much effort is required is for you to decide.

Ultimately, my XP proves everything to me - one way or another that's what always ends up convincing me of anything.

I'm aware that my XP can fool me just as easily as my perception can & that's where knowing how to tell the difference between what is true & what isn't can make all the difference. We all have a built in device for doing that, we just haven't been properly taught how to only use it to our advantage - we've also been taught how to use it to our disadvantage.

By continuing to follow the path of least resistance, I know I can easily maintain my peace of mind amidst all the chaos that ever seems to occur - sometimes I feel the need to do something & sometimes I don't.

I only do what I feel like doing now & I do whatever I want whenever I can - as long as I feel like it. I only do what I don't want when I don't happen to mind or when I truly feel the need & that seems to be happening less & less.

The only way for everyone to always be right & for no one to ever be wrong is if everyone is always right for themselves no matter what they ever decide.

What could possibly be freer than that?

Just b/c I'm always right for myself that doesn't ever make me right for anyone else & being able to make that distinction is essential.

Forgiveness is always the key, whenever I happen to forget & I only ever forget to remember better.

The easier you can forgive others when they happen to forget what they should already know, the easier it is for you to know that you have truly forgiven yourself - it's also an indication of how well you're doing.

Forgiveness is for everyone, but for no one more than the self.

Forgiveness is something else we aren't properly taught how to use.

Never let anyone think&feel that they can harm you in any way.

It's not about suppressing your emotions, it's about truly understanding them. The whole process should be as effortless as possible - it can be done by will alone.

Don't forgive people for what you think&feel they've done to you - forgive yourself for thinking&feeling there's anything they can do to you. Nothing ever even needs to said - you merely show them what is true by how you react to them.

This will work on your subconscious mind & reinforces your strength.

Since the process is already happening naturally on its own, there's truly nothing that you ever need to do. All you can ever do is speed up the process & by saving yourself some time, you save everyone else some time.

How you react to everything & everyone is always a reflection of what's truly going on in your own mind at any given moment.

You are the MASTER & the SERVANT - there is no other.

Whatever your idea of the TRUTH is, you will always hold both yourself & everyone else up to that ideal - regardless of whether it actually reflects the TRUTH or not. It will certainly seem like it does to you, until you change your mind about it again.

Eventually, you will change your mind about it for the last time & when you do you will definitely feel the difference.

Everybody teaches & everybody learns.

You're always learning who you truly think&feel you are & teaching it to yourself.

What you think&feel about others is always a reflection of what you think&feel about yourself.

All reflections are distorted - how distorted depends on who is doing the perceiving.

You can learn a lot about yourself just by what you think&feel about others & sometimes you won't figure out what that is until something has been said or done. That's why focus & awareness are needed beforehand & forgiveness afterward.

Never look thru the glass darkly & always see everyone is the best possible light - or not.

Judge not lest ye be judged isn't suggesting that you don't use judgment - it's suggesting you don't use condemnation & that still doesn't mean you can't.

It seems impossible to love everyone & it seems impossible to hate everyone.

I don't hate anyone & I love everyone I know.

I always offer everyone the same freedom I expect for myself.

I treat everyone equally & the same.

The past is not now.

I'm writing all this shit down for myself first, if anyone else happens to get anything useful out of it - that's great, but it's hardly my concern.

Writing is just an easy way of having a conversation about it all w/o having to find someone who actually wants to fucking talk about it & I've already done enough of that to know I don't need to do it anymore. Most people don't seem to want to even think about all this shit, let alone talk about it & I certainly can't blame them for that.

If there truly was anything else I felt like doing, I'd most certainly be doing it & that still doesn't mean I won't.

I'm always willing to listen to any idea that might be better than the one I already have - until that happens, I'm sticking w/ what I got.

I've already read or heard just about every idea that's out there & I've taken a little bit of something from almost everything & put it to good use. Whatever has proven to work I keep - everything else I just file away or let go.

Almost everything about this world seems to be designed to convince you that you are not eternal&limitless & that will make perfect sense once you're willing to accept why it is that way.

No matter what you ever perceive & XP, despite all appearances, you can still think&feel whatever the fuck you want - as long as you can convince yourself that it's true & you're doing exactly that all the fucking time, whether you're aware of it or not.

What does it truly ever take to convince you of anything?

Whenever you're thinking&feeling something you don't like, you must want to be thinking&feeling that way - otherwise, you would simply change your mind about it.

Easier said than done, no fucking doubt - but it's still never impossible.

Like everything else here it does seem to take some practice & since I hate to practice anything I just turned it all into a game that I'm always playing w/ myself - just not myself alone.

The benefit to you & those around you will prove itself in time.

If you don't think&feel the choice is truly yours to make, then how can you possibly ever think&feel your mind&will are truly free?

I'm not saying you have to, but why the hell wouldn't you want to?

Whenever you start thinking&feeling something you don't happen to like, you are merely falling asleep - even though it might seem that you're awake. If you aren't vigilant, you just might slip into a dream... not that there's anything wrong w/ that.

At least if you're aware of it, you'll have more options & that will help make it a better XP.

What could possibly be more challenging for the eternal&limitless than to XP death & limitation?

Since freedom & peace are already yours, all you ever have to do to be aware of this is desire them more than anything else & that's not always so easy to do when you want something else.

How you go about XPing all that is always up to you.

If you can remember that peace of mind is never more than one thought away from your awareness, there won't be anything you ever XP that you can't deal w/ ease.

You always know when you have peace of mind & when you don't - the feeling is unmistakable - it can't ever help but give itself away.

What you choose to do about the feeling whenever you become aware of it always determines what you & those around you XP next.

Everyone always does what they think&feel they need to do - I am no different.

Freedom&peace always belong together - only one is a choice. Guess which one?

GoD being GoD, GoD can do everything by will alone - it would take zero time & zero effort for GoD to do anything - so neither space nor time would be needed. W/o space&time, nothing physical is needed - however, to do anything or to feel anything, something physical is required.

Since nothing can't possibly exist, there must have always been something.

You can still have a BigBangTheory to explain the beginning of the universe - just not from nothing.

As always, you're free to disagree.

Maybe before the BigBang there were only electrons. Are electrons nothing?

No one has ever even seen an electron - yet, they're everywhere one looks. Electrons can even be in more than one place at a time. We can only know where an electron has been by taking a measurement & perception is a way of taking a measurement.

What difference does all that truly make? It can only matter if you think it matters & you still can't ever make it matter to me.

What would a being who is eternal&limitless possibly want to do or feel that they can't?

Almost everything I've ever wanted to do has been something I hadn't done before or wasn't certain I could & if I truly wanted to know, something had to be done about it. If it was something I truly wanted, I had to XP it for myself to be certain - someone else's opinion just wouldn't be good enough. If I ended up liking the XP, I usually wanted to XP it again & again - until I either got tired of it or just had enough. My memory of past XPs would be enough for me to let it go once I reached that point.

I always want to XP more of what I like & less of what I don't.

Wouldn't GoD want to do what it would seem GoD couldn't?

Of course, from GoD's perspective there wouldn't be anything GoD couldn't do & there wouldn't ever be any question about it - all that would leave is the XPerience.

From our perspective, there does seem to be a few things we might think&feel GoD couldn't or wouldn't do. Couldn't is impossible if GoD is limitless & wouldn't is another matter altogether.

How could GoD ever feel weak?

How could GoD ever be afraid?

If GoD is limitless, both must be possible.

The only way GoD could ever XP either of those things is if GoD were to forget that GoD was GoD - that's the only fucking way & since GoD is GoD that too must be possible.

How would GoD go about doing that?

How could GoD ever forget that GoD was GoD?

You can imagine something all you want - there's still nothing better than XPing it firsthand.

It just wouldn't be the same XP if GoD knew & that's easy enough to prove to yourself - all you ever have to do to XP that firsthand is pretend for a little while that you know.

Not being able to drastically change the physical w/o some physical effort would be exactly how GoD would have set up the situation, if GoD truly wanted to forget that GoD was GoD - it would just be too fucking easy otherwise.

The effect of mind over matter would have to be minimal at best.

The answer always goes back to the only thing that I can ever do here by will alone & it's the only way for me to ever prove to myself that I am GoD, or at the very least, like GoD, which is essentially the same idea - eternal&limitless.

It's the same exact test for everyone & it takes zero effort - 100% of the time. No more effort than it takes to think & react.

That's what makes it both the easiest & hardest thing there ever is to do at the same time. The potential to misuse the power is completely non-existent, which makes it fucking perfect - whether anyone likes the idea of it or not.

What could possibly be better than having&being everything?

Anyone who has ever shared something they love w/ someone they love knows the answer to that - belief is not required.

The only way for GoD not to be all alone is if GoD has something else to share the XP of existence w/.

How does something that is everything share all that it is equally w/ something else w/o destroying itself in the process?

CREATION is an act of sharing - if it isn't done equally then it isn't truly sharing.

Would you ever be willing to share such power equally w/ someone else?

How about everyone else?

Would GoD set up some rules first before doing such a thing?

Would GoD set a time limit on the XP?

Would GoD even care how long it would take for GoD to remember that GoD is GoD?

Would you?

Even once GoD remembered, it would be impossible for GoD to completely think&feel GoD was all alone b/c it wouldn't truly feel that way ever again.

While I'm always willing to share my dream equally w/ everyone - I'd much rather share reality.

PEACE.

ledhead999

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