PROOF OF GOD?

A LITTLE BACKSTORY:

THE FOLLOWING BLOG WAS MY FINAL-FINAL POSTING IN A FORUM ON THE WEBSITE WHYWONTGODHEALAMPUTEES.COM - THEY REFUSED TO POST IT.

AFTER ATTEMPTING TO DISCUSS THE IDEA OF GOD W/ A BUNCH OF ATHEIST WHO REQUIRE THEIR OWN SPECIAL KIND OF PROOF OF GOD BEFORE THEY ARE EVEN WILLING TO DISCUSS THE POSSIBILITY OF GOD - I DECIDED THAT THE KIND OF PROOF THEY NEEDED TO BE CONVINCED COULDN'T EVER BE PROVIDED - AT LEAST NOT BY ME.  I STILL TRIED B/C I KNEW THAT THE DISCUSSION OF THE SUBJECT WOULD ONLY HELP CONVINCE ME OF WHAT I REALLY BELIEVE.

AFTER A COUPLE OF EARLY POSTINGS - MY POSTS WERE FLAGGED AS BEING PREACHY B/C I COULDN'T PROVIDE PROOF FOR WHAT I WAS SAYING - AT LEAST NOT PROOF THAT ANYONE ON THE WEBSITE WOULD ACCEPT.  MY POSTINGS THEN NEEDED TO BE APPROVED BY THE MODERATORS OF THE WEBSITE & SINCE I FLAT OUT REFUSED TO BE MODERATED IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM THIS CREATED A RIFF BETWEEN ME & SOME OF THE MODERATORS.

I ALWAYS TEND TO SAY WHAT I THINK & I SAY IT IN THE MANNER I CHOOSE.  MY THOUGHTS, WORDS & ACTIONS ARE ALWAYS IN LINE.  I ALWAYS TRY TO USE HUMOR - THE ONLY THING I TAKE SERIOUSLY IS THAT I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY.  I'M HUMBLE WHEN I THINK I NEED TO BE HUMBLE & I'M BOLD WHEN I THINK I NEED TO BE BOLD.  I NEVER USED HARSH LANGUAGE TOWARDS THE OTHER PEOPLE ON THE FORUM - BUT TO THE MODERATORS I MOST CERTAINLY DID.  THEY DIDN'T LIKE MY TONE - SO I DECIDED TO TRY A DIFFERENT APPROACH.

I STARTED RESPONDING TO POST W/ PERSONAL MESSAGES THAT DIDN'T NEED TO BE APPROVED.  THEY DIDN'T LIKE THAT EITHER.  I WENT BACK TO POSTING & EVENTUALLY THEY DID POST MOST OF WHAT I SUBMITTED & I DID MANAGE TO HAVE SOME INTERESTING DISCUSSIONS ABOUT PROOF OF DESIGN IN THE UNIVERSE OR LACK THERE OF W/ THE OTHER MEMBERS.  I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT HOW THEY THINK - WHICH WAS A GOOD LEARNING EXPERIENCE FOR ME.

NONE OF MY SUGGESTIONS FOR PROOF WERE EVER GIVEN THE SLIGHTEST CREDENCE.  THEY ALWAYS FOUND A WAY TO POINT OUT WHAT WAS WRONG W/ WHAT I WAS SAYING W/O EVER ADMITTING ANYTHING I WAS SAYING WAS EVER RIGHT.  THEY STILL WANTED CONCRETE / PHYSICAL PROOF BEFORE THEY WOULD GIVE AN INCH ABOUT ANYTHING.

I SUGGESTED THAT MATH IS PROOF OF DESIGN.  THEY SAID MAN DESIGNED MATH - I SAID MAN DISCOVERED MATH HE DIDN'T DESIGN IT - MAN DIDN'T DECIDE THAT IT WORKS THE WAY IT DOES - IT JUST DOES.  THEY SAID MATH IS JUST A TOOL - IT'S NOT THAT SPECIAL.  THEY ALL SEEM TO KNOW A LOT ABOUT MATH - I HATE MATH - I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT MATH - SO I TRIED ANOTHER WAY.

I SUGGESTED THAT OUR SOLAR SYSTEM WORKS LIKE A CLOCK – THAT IT WAS WORKING LIKE A CLOCK LONG BEFORE ANY HUMAN EVER CAME UP W/ THE IDEA FOR A CLOCK.  LIKE ANY GOOD ATHEIST THEY WOULDN'T EVEN BUDGE ON THIS - THEY SAID THE SOLAR SYSTEM IS IN NO WAY LIKE A CLOCK.  I SAID IT'S NOT EXACTLY LIKE A CLOCK - BUT IT'S STILL LIKE A CLOCK - IF OUR WAY OF KEEPING TIME IS SO GREAT WHY DO WE ADJUST OUR CLOCKS TO THE UNIVERSE?  THEIR RESPONSES TO THIS WERE THAT A CLOCK KEEPS PERFECT TIME & THE SOLAR SYSTEM IS FAR FROM PERFECT IN HOW IT KEEPS TIME WHICH IS WHY WE ADJUST OUR CLOCKS TO IT.  I SAID THE UNIVERSE DOESN'T CARE WHAT TIME IT IS - WE DO.  IT’S REALLY ALWAYS NOW.

IT SEEMS FOR THEM ANY ANSWER IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN EVER ADMITTING IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM THAT THE UNIVERSE COULD BE DESIGNED TO BE THE WAY IT IS.  THEY WON’T EVEN ADMIT IT’S POSSIBLE.  AFTER SEVERAL DAYS OF THIS I WAS MENTALLY EXHAUSTED.  I COULDN'T CONVINCE THEM - THEY COULDN'T CONVINCE ME.  I FELT THAT THE WHOLE EXERCISE - WHILE ENTERTAINING - WAS BECOMING POINTLESS.

AFTER MANY, MANY POST THEY STILL WOULDN'T TAKE ME OFF BEING MODERATED - SO I CALLED BULLSHIT & MADE ONE MORE POST SAYING GOODBYE TO THEM ALL.  

I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE.  I HAD MY FUN – BUT IT WAS NO LONGER FUN.  I KNOW I CAN BELIEVE WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT TO BELIEVE & I TOLD THEM OVER & OVER AGAIN THAT THEY CAN DO THE SAME.  THOUGH I STILL HAVE SOME DOUBTS OF MY OWN ABOUT WHAT I BELIEVE IS TRUE - I KNOW I CERTAINLY DON'T NEED TO PROVE IT TO ANYONE ELSE BUT MYSELF.  THE ONLY POINT OF DISCUSSING THE SUBJECT AT ALL IS TO BETTER UNDERSTAND WHAT I BELIEVE.  I DECIDED IT WAS BETTER FOR MY PEACE OF MIND IF I JUST STOPPED - SO I DID.

THE REST OF THIS BLOG IS WHAT HAPPENED THAT VERY SAME NIGHT & THE FOLLOWING IS WHAT THEY REFUSED TO POST.

Proof of God?

This answer came to me last night while I was sleeping - it came as a thought - an idea - an inspiration.  A dream in the middle of the night.  I wasn't really expecting it to come - but before I went to bed I prayed to God & what God told me in the manner in which I just described may or may not be useful to you & it may or may not be proof to you.

Before I went to bed I wrote some stuff down to tell you all why you're full of shit & nothing but a bunch of hypocrites - no different than the other side you're always fighting against - even though you have opposite viewpoints about what's true & what isn't - you are the same.

I liked what I wrote - I thought what I wrote down was true - but like what you've all been pushing me to do - I had to ask myself - Could I prove that it was true?  

I was certain you wouldn't think it was true w/o proof, but for the life of me I couldn't think of how to prove it to you.  I knew w/o being able to prove it there wouldn't be any point in sending it to you.

I kept trying to think of a way to prove it so it could be understood.  So it would make sense to anyone who reads it.  So there was no way of denying it.  What will convince everybody beyond a shadow of doubt?

I couldn't figure it out - so I just decided to go to bed even though I really wasn't tired.

I went to bed listening to my iPod w/ headphones on which I have been doing more often lately - still thinking about it all & I decided to pray in my own way.  I didn't have to get down on my knees.  I didn't have to put my hands together though I was reading over what I wrote on my iphone so they were kind of together - but I didn't think of that while I was lying there.  My iphone is loaded only w/ music I love to listen to - there isn't one thing on there that I don't love.  I haven't added anything new to it in a year.  I have plenty of favorites - but I still love them all.

This was my prayer to God as best as I can remember:

You suck.  I'm sick of fucking doing what I keep thinking you're asking me to do.  I been doing it for long enough now & I don't want to do any of it any more.  Fuck you.  I want some fucking definite answers - something that nobody can possible deny w/o proving themselves foolish.  No more bullshit.

Nobody fucking down here wants to believe what you fucking really are.  It's impossible for me to convince anybody what I think I know w/o some fucking proof - no matter what or how I seem to try to do it - nothing seems to work & it's really starting to piss me off.

Either fucking tell me what I'm supposed to do now or go fuck yourself b/c I fucking quit.

If you're really fucking there & not just a figment of my fucking imagination you know how fucking good I am at quitting shit I don't want to do & if after all this fucking time you aren't willing to give me a fucking answer that will fucking work now instead of later - then fuck off & leave me the fuck alone.  Amen.

I didn't really think or say Amen.  I'm just saying that to point out the end of the prayer.  I really just decided to go to sleep.

That was essential my prayer.  I was pissed but nobody would have been able to tell - I was just thinking it while I was listening to my music.  It was more like Steve Martin trying to get a fucking car in Planes, Trains & Automobiles than a Psalm - but as you already know I don't give a shit.

This was God's answer to my prayer later that night after I fell asleep - you tell me if I just made it up b/c I can't really tell anymore - but I know what I believe.

God is made of Love & Peace & Joy.

God isn't made of any "thing" & that's why God doesn't give a shit about bodies.  Matter is really an illusion even though it seems very real.  God created the illusion to be able to share existence w/ something other than God.  To be able to do that God had to create something new which God considers to be His Son.

God only has one Son & all of us are it - equally.  As long as this is being denied here on Earth we will never know it even though God is reflected in every one of us & every thing.

We can only ever be of one spirit & one mind - we can never be of one body - but together they all 3 make up the Holy Trinity.

We can only accept or deny that this is true.  The truth of it hasn't changed since the beginning of time & it never will until the end of time.

In truth there is no beginning or end to existence - only time - but time is part of the illusion b/c it really is always now.  It's never not now.

Life is eternal.  Death is part of the illusion.  

We can take as long as we need to accept what's true - but we can never change it.  The truth will never be forced on us.  To accept what's true we only must be willing to deny what isn't.

HERE IS THE PROOF THAT WHAT GOD IS MADE OF IS TRUE:

Love is better than Hate.

Peace is better than War.

Joy is better than Sorrow.

In this world of illusion we all live in we judge everything by comparison.  

God makes no judgments b/c God knows what's true so there is no need for comparison.

We also know what's true - but we don't want to accept that it can be so simple & easy.

The problem w/ claiming God is imaginary or that God is something that God isn't is that it isn't true.

Imagination is used by everyone who exists.

Scientist throughout history have used their imagination to accomplish amazing things. They have used it to inspire themselves & others to attempt doing things that even they themselves didn't think were possible.  They had an idea or a vision or a dream that told them it was possible & they believed it - even though they didn't know if it was true.  Even though they didn't have proof.

Even when nobody else believed in what they were trying to do or even thought it could be done - they still carried on - no matter how they were ridiculed & no matter by who - even their peers.

They were inspired by their thoughts & their imaginations or whatever else it might take for them to accomplish what they wanted to accomplish.  They refused to be stopped from trying by anyone.

Some of the greatest discoveries in the history of the world were the result of their determination to succeed where others had failed.  They were given everything they needed to succeed but they were the ones who had to decide to carry on against all odds - no matter what the cost - by any means necessary.

All of the things that exist now wouldn't even be if all those who came before us didn't have something to inspire them.  If they had listened to what other people were telling them could or couldn't be done or why they were crazy or delusional for even trying - none of it would have happened the way it did.  But it did happen - b/c of them & b/c of their desire & despite everything else.

Saying God is imaginary or saying God is something God is not when the truth is known & when God is the one who provided the possibility for all of us to experience what life & existence truly means... well, that's disrespectful.

God doesn't judge us or condemn us for doing it b/c God knows what's true.

God doesn't forgive b/c there is no need for God to do that.  God knows the truth.

When we finally realize what is true we must be able to forgive ourselves for forgetting that we already knew.  

How do you tell somebody what they already know w/o making them feel stupid?  You let them discover it for themselves.

The way the world is now is the result of denying what is & always will be true - nothing more & nothing less.

God gave man Dominion over the Earth & himself.  

Love is only love when it's unconditional.  You can only pretend it's something else.  Love is the cause of our existence - peace & joy are the effect.  

  

When this is denied something that isn't true is perceived in its place.  Everyone must decide for themselves what they want to be true & we decide w/ every thought.  We never stop deciding & what we perceive is the result of our decisions.

Calling people who believe something you don't delusional or crazy or evil is hypocritical when you know many of the most brilliant scientists who have ever lived have been thought to be just that by both their peers & everyone else who didn't believe what they believed was possible.  The other side does the same thing w/ prophets.  The result is always bloodshed.

The Fear of God is what needs to be denied & dispelled as imaginary - not the idea of God's existence.  

The Love of God is all that's real b/c that is all that's given.

That's what will end religion & war & everything else about this world that isn't true.  When the truth is accepted by enough people it'll be like a wave of thought covering the entire Earth.

Who told you you were naked is the Last Judgment.  That is the Alpha & Omega.  It's not really a question if you already know the answer.

It's time to wake the dead.  The dead are the ones who think they are naked.

You tell me how any of this isn't true if you can - I already know you can deny it.

All I want is for everybody everywhere to be happy b/c I'm tired of not being happy.  

That's my desire.  That's my dream.  Is that an illusion?

peace